sad mad glad

     I’m tired of trying to be somebody I’m not. I watched a friend do that recently. She told me that, compared to other people in the room, she didn’t measure up. She was comparing her insides to other people’s outsides. She couldn’t see her own beauty (which was shining). It made me sad.

     It made me mad, too – not mad at her, but mad at the waste. I was mad and sad because I have wasted so much energy comparing my insides to other people’s outsides and coming up short.

     It made me so mad and sad that I think I’m finally willing to quit. From now on, if I want to compare, I’ll compare who I am today with who I was yesterday. I can already feel mad and sad turning into glad.    

“It is the chiefest point of happiness that a man is willing to be what he is.” Desiderius Erasmus

“I will rejoice and be glad in Your lovingkindness.” Psalm 31:7